I am setting here eating my last meal of cheesecake and vanilla coke because tomorrow everything changes. I am tired of being fat, and I am ready to make lasting changes. Why haven't I tried to loose weight before you might ask? I have, multiple times.
I lost 40 lbs in my early 20's by working out at at curves 5 days a week and eating grilled chicken and veggies non stop. I meet my ex husband and had a baby in my late 20's and everything changed. I now have emotions that I sooth with food and have had a baby so my tricks from my younger days don't work any more. After I left my ex-husband and my baby was almost three I lost around 30 lbs. I was back down to 150 and meet the love of my life. We married and I put that weight plus more back on. I guess I got fat and happy. I have tried to loose weight since then, Advocare 24 day challenge, 21 day fix, whole 30, Paleo, etc. I learned something about myself on each of these programs, but weight lose was 5-10 lbs and temporary. I found a love for Obstacle Course racing and started to lift, and I got bigger. I have so many resource about lifting to get lean, but for me I built muscle under my fat and got bigger. I decided to take this summer off to focus on loosing fat and letting injuries heal, and nothing has changed. I have not lost a single pound or inch. I even turned down pizza and cake at one of my daughters birthday party. I should have lost at least 5 lbs for that. And that brings me to right now, eating cheese cake and drinking vanilla coke. I have an appointment with a friend to set up a personal plan designed just for me tomorrow afternoon. I am determined to not give up until I find something that works. In the morning, which is in a few hours I am going to weigh, measure, and progress pics and I will post them here.
"I was made for more than being stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat. I am not made to be a victim of my poor choices. I was made to be a victorious child of God." Made to Crave p. 153.
Let the journey begin!
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