I am not a failure

Life has been stressful and I haven't been eating right or making exercise a priority.    I have a plan to change this. I made a menu for next week, meal prep, and made a workout schedule. I am determined to succeed. I will not let this set me back and make me quit. School starts up, and its time to get back to it.  I start training with Aaron after Labor Day.

Gotta start somewhere

First thing this morning I weighed measured, and took pics.

weight  196.6
Bust- 35
hips-45
L thigh 26.5
R thigh  26
L calf   16.5
R calf   16
L bicep 13
R bicep  12.5

 

I plan to do this every month on the 9th.  I will make changes and take care of myself.

"If we make the choice to be Jesus girls who offer our willingness to exercise self-control and perseverance to the glory of God, we can lose weight, get healthy, and walk in  confidence that it is possible to escape the cycle of losing and gaining back again. We can be victorious. We can step on the scale and accept the numbers for what they are-an indication of how much our body weights- and not an indication of our worth."  Made To Crave p.74.

the beginning

I am setting here eating my last meal of cheesecake and vanilla coke because tomorrow everything changes.  I am tired of being fat, and I am ready to make lasting changes.  Why haven't I tried to loose weight before you might ask?  I have, multiple times.
  I lost  40 lbs in my early 20's by working out at at curves 5 days a week and eating grilled chicken and veggies non stop.  I meet my ex husband and had a baby in my late 20's and everything changed. I now have emotions  that I sooth with food and have had a baby so my tricks from my younger days don't work any more. After I left my ex-husband and my baby was almost three I lost around 30 lbs. I was back down to 150 and meet the love of my life.  We married and I put that weight plus more back on. I guess I got fat and happy.  I have tried to loose weight since then, Advocare 24 day challenge, 21 day fix, whole 30, Paleo, etc. I learned something about myself on each of these programs, but weight lose was 5-10 lbs and temporary. I found a love for Obstacle Course racing and started to lift, and I got bigger. I have so many resource about lifting to get lean, but for me I built muscle under my fat and got bigger. I decided to take this summer off to focus on loosing fat and letting injuries heal, and nothing has changed. I have not lost a single pound or inch. I even turned down pizza and cake at one of my daughters birthday party. I should have lost at least 5 lbs for that. And that brings me to right now, eating cheese cake and drinking vanilla coke.  I have an appointment with a friend to set up a personal plan designed just for me tomorrow afternoon.  I am determined to not give up until I find something that works. In the morning, which is in a few hours I am going to weigh, measure, and progress pics and I will post them here.

"I was made for more than being stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat. I am not made to be a victim of my poor choices. I was made to be a victorious child of God."  Made to Crave p. 153.

Let the journey begin!